July 2010
3 posts
some where out there
I need you here with me now, I feel as if a gaping hole is tearing through my heart. I want your strong freckled arms around my waist as I sit atop of you. I want to be wearing that sweater that smells just like you. That blazing smile that burns my cheeks. I want those butterfly’s in the pit of my stomach. God I can’t deny what the soul is screaming at Me. I would move mountains and...
the thoughts that are driving me to insanity
I can’t sleep with you always on my mind. I wonder what your thinking at this very moment. Am I in your thoughts as much as you are in my mind. I would like to believe that I’m not in love but my heart knows this is not true and I would be kidding my self with anything less than is awful goodness. There is no reason why I have this molten fire inside to my very core. I don’t know...
June 2010
7 posts
I know I need to say goodbye, why is this so fucking hard to do. I know I need to let him go, let it be. I keep asking people what to do, only wanting them to tell me what I want to hear. Shit man, This is really tearing me up on the inside. He has a girl who loves him dearly and I promised myself I would never take that away from some one ever again. To sacrifice my happiness for another. I give...
so today
Why do people think screaming at me is going to get them any where, I dont Give a fuck who you are, the president for all I care, respect goes both ways mother fucker. So dig the sand out of your vag and treat me with a tad bit of dignity you fucking piece of steaming dog shit.
what.....
my life is amazing, bittersweet in a way I suppose. Im doing some thing that not alot of people way they have done. but on the flip side I traded familiarity. I left it all behind me. when I am home i feel alienated by my old friends and even my family, I feel I dont know them any more. What to do, what to do. What will I become when I am done with the military, who will I be. What are my morals?...
Above in dark mocking clouds Exquisite torques eyes stare down Rejoicing in the suffering Dancing in my bitter tears Taunting touches threaten to jump start my heart Where elegant demons linger Their contorted hands Nail me down next to Christ His brilliant eyes give me no solace Just pity If I had the will I’d rip all your memories Tear them into a million shreds Turn them...
so here I am
So here I am in the United states military. Im struggling to find my way through this insanity. I dont regret joining, but some days I wounder what would have happened if I chose a different path
