my life is amazing, bittersweet in a way I suppose. Im doing some thing that not alot of people way they have done. but on the flip side I traded familiarity. I left it all behind me. when I am home i feel alienated by my old friends and even my family, I feel I dont know them any more. What to do, what to do. What will I become when I am done with the military, who will I be. What are my morals? what are they now? I feel like ive lost myself. I thought i had it figured out, to come to find out I dont know the first thing about myself. I over think things now a days. I know im not normal, but who is. My mask i wear, why do i hide behind some thing that is not the truth, this ugly truth that is me that lies behind the facade.